{confessions}

I love this little girl... adore her actually!  But I am tired... SO TIRED!  Motherhood is amazing, exhausting, wonderful.  Who knew I could be so completely happy and so completely frustrated all at once.  My children teach me patience... I struggle with consistency... and I wonder some days if I will ever get it right!  

I am the lucky mother of 3 adorable, sweet, chatty, demanding little people who fill my whole world with wonder, love, and tantrums.  I don't remember what it is like to wake up 'refreshed' I want to flop and the floor some days and join in the screaming... honestly some days I do.  So here are my most recent 'mommy confessions' because I am having a day where I just feel tired, lucky, happy, but tired and I know I can and should do better but today I am in survival mode... 

Confession number one: We watch too much PBS, I mean WAY too much I will let my kids watch PBS all morning some days... they love it!

Confession number two: My kids eat Mac n' Cheese far too often.  Why is it that they LOVE things like mac n' cheese, hot dogs, oatmeal, pancakes, pb & honey, but I make 'a real meal' and they won' even try a bite... I am an okay cook I promise!   Sometimes I make mac n' cheese just so they will eat!

Confession number 3: I leave their toys scattered around the floor most nights because I am too tired to pick them all up... I just step over and around them and think to myself I should pick those up and then remember that they will all be out again in the morning and I LET THEM LIE!  

Confession  number 4: I let Maggie sleep with me almost every night!  I remember when we had Alyse and I was adamant that she was to sleep in her own bed it was just safer.... SIDS risks and all, well... Maggie sleeps next to me believe me it is safer!  I am so tired that it is more convenient for her to be right there so I can feed her than to sleepily try and move her in the middle of the night...

Those are today's confessions.  Now I am off to spend some quality time with my 3 year old while my two babies take a nap!  Maybe she will want to snuggle and read books that sounds relaxing and we all know that I am oh so tired!  (Have I mentioned that by the way?)