{i want . . . i wish . . . }

I had a BAD case of the 'I wants' this weekend! I found a blog of an old friend from high school who had a brand new big house, new car, huge yard with a great playset for her kids, she got to stay home and didn't have to work . . . . etc. Suddenly I found myself wishing for all these nice and wonderful things. I became so discontent with the things I do have and very UNGRATEFUL! I must say I let a very BAD feeling into our home through my envying and when I woke up this morning and knelt down to say my prayers I was suddenly overwhelmed with gratitude for the many many blessings that I have. As I finished my prayer I heard my sweet Aly's voice calling me from her room telling me she was up and "needed me", my eyes immediatly filled with tears as I realized that I wouldn't trade my little house or my hand me down furniture I love my life, at times it is HARD, we don't have a lot and are grateful for what we do. But I know that someday when we are older we will look back at this tiem when our kids were young and we worked so hard for what we have and appreciate it that much more because it wasn't easy. I should have never let that evil ugly feeling into our home and I am so grateful for the life I have! I hope that the feeling of peace and contentment that I have this morning will be with me for a long time, maybe I need to post a few more 'thankful thursdays' to keep me in the grateful spirit!